Forbidden Love
Hi Mark and Sophie,
Ok, so for the past 8 months I've been "dating" my boss. I put it in quotes because I'm not sure secretly seeing each other at his house and pretending to be just friends in public is actually "dating". He's not married (divorced, I've met the kids and talked to the ex) it's just that his boss, has made it clear that a relationship between the two of us, would not be a good thing. At least a dozen times, one or the other of us has "called it quits" but during our breaks we always end up talking on the phone every night for hours, and eventually end up right back in our confusing relationship. When we are together it's great, whether we're watching movies or TV, making dinner together, or just sitting around talking -- and oh yeah, the sex is amazing.
I have offered to quit my job, but he has other issues ....commitment issues, says he "just can't give me everything I want and deserve right now". But he can't totally give me up either -- calls me his "cocaine" and everytime I think I might be getting over him a bit, somehow he seems to know, and he calls and sort of hints that while right now is not right, maybe some time in the future.....who knows "but you do what you have to do", he says, "I can't stop you from doing whatever it is that makes you happy, and I really do want you to be happy."
Right now we're "off" still talking most nights on the phone but I havn't gone over for over a month. Now, there is the possiblity of someone new for me -- friend of a friend who actually is quite nice -- but, I'm still madly in love with 'boss-man'. Is it wrong for me to go out with new-guy to a) see if there might be something there, and b) help me get over mr. non-committal, even though I still fantasize that some-day, some-how things will change, he will change, and my "boss" and I will live happily ever after?
Do I settle for second best?
Forbidden Love