Am I Expecting Too Much?
I just broke up with my boyfriend of 2 and a half years! I've had trust issues with him ever since he lied to me about taking a picture up a girls skirt that he works with along with a text message at 3am to her. He has lied to me before but never about a girl. That all happened about a year ago yet I still can't seem to let it go. We have been so off and on because I feel as if he just doesn't care anymore. We started arguing which we argue at least once a week and I had told him I needed space. So I left, but about 30 min later I text him and tell him that I want to talk because I hate how we left off! So he wrote back and said he was going to wash his car and I would know where to find him. He didn't text me back for a while then I text him and asked when he wanted to talk so he suggested we meet at a bar. Which by the way drinking is a problem in the relationship because he used to be an alcoholic which was a bad time for us so I'm not too fond of him drinking now. I asked where he was and of course he was at a bar so I told him never mind talking have a great night. I just wish he would have said I'll leave to meet you wherever or at least call to say he's done with his car and we could meet then. Everytime I break it off I'm always the one that calls him and runs back! Why do I doubt myself so much? He really is a great guy and does sweet things for me like cook and open doors but he's not incredibly attentive and like I said there are trust issues. I'm trying to stay strong but I'm also wondering if it this was the right decision. He's my first love. Am I just expecting too much?